saturday, august 31, 2002

oh my lord, i am such a loser. i have done nothing productive all day- well, that's a slight lie- i did finish my calarts application and finished my first storyboard for my storyboarding class- but otherwise, jeez. i didn't even have human contact today. wow, usually it's sundays when i'm so compleatly worthless.
tomorrow we shall see about this. none of this loneliness. we will go out into the world, walk forever, see the monarch butterflies, perhaps a show- yes. it will be good.
oh yes... i think the song i was talking about yesterday was infact "sukiyaki" whatever ^^

suddenly i was @ 10:17 pm

friday, august 30, 2002

my latest lonely entertainment. i was listening to oldies on the radio when the dj announced they would be doing requests all weekend. so, whatever, i called the national radio program because i'm a loser, and got through! i requested "suki-aki" they recorded my request and everything, but that was quite a while ago, and i think they've forgotten my request, unless they're saving it for some odd reason <-- wishful thinking.
blast, i really wanted to hear that song too.
what else? i still haven't got into the figure drawing class. i'm thinking i might try a hong kong cinema class instead. please, let me get into something- i am paying way too much for this school to not get the classes i want.
in other random news, wow. that is but one reason why master boyd is best!

suddenly i was @ 10:54 pm

thursday, august 29, 2002

i am so tired i'm about to fall on my face, and lo! it is but 10 pm. those who know me would find this state of mine amazing. oh my god, is that stupid clock down there still off? sigh. i don't know what timezone it thinks it lives in, because it is most certainly not mine.
dah. i am very stressed. today was the first day of classes. i had animation first (9-4) which was swell. i love animation. nothing new there, but then later, i went to try and get into a figure drawing class (so i can escape my independent study for shockwave computer programming [really, after this summer of coding, the last thing i want to do is shackle myself to more code-making!!]). i went to the class and stayed all the way through, but the teacher is one of those who won't let you sign in unless someone else drops the class. six people were absent, but that doesn't mean they've dropped, no one knows that until next next. the problem is however, if they don't drop, the class add-drop period ends next week- leaving me no chance to search for another option! personally, i think since i was there for class and the others weren't, i earned the right to the class. jeez- i'm paying enough for this school, i should get classes i want!
god bless it. all i want to do is stare at naked bodies and draw.

suddenly i was @ 08:58 pm

wednesday, august 28, 2002

woot! what a day. wrapping it up with a little elton john on the radio too. today was billy boyd's birthday! not like such a thing makes any difference to me or my life, but then again, i am the one who runs around proclaiming when it's marilyn monroe's birthday as well.
today we <-- (me, i speak with the royal we) managed to get the computer lab to work for us. found the one computer on which photoshop worked while simultaneously being connected to a scanner, and scanned all my happy images (though, it is dutifully noted, the computer still ate my disk.)
after happy happy scan hour, i mailed a pile of letters and participated in a "iraq: let's talk." rally outside the postoffice. well, participated, what ever, listened to a speech.
p.s. i really don't think the u.s. should start a war with iraq. a. i don't see any immediate danger imposed on the country b. there's no support. while i do wish something could be done about saddam, as he is a tyrant and pyscho, is war the answer? no. not until there is no other option. at least have allied support! there is a reason the america's allies are jumping to help. they're smart. there's no reason to, at least as of now. if the u.s. thinks it is strong enough to take war on by itself, it is sorely mistaken. keep an eye on iraq, but don't make a move until they do. war can only mean one thing: the loss of life, both american and iraqi at the hands of government powers, and that is wrong.
god, let the world survive bush's presidency.
anyhow, after my quota rally, my "quest for job" began anew. today, since yesterday we hit the theatre district, i thought it most apt to do museums today. i also went to this comic book store i applied to a thousand years ago, and the manager remembered me by name! he made things sound so positive, i felt as if i had walked away with a job! we'll see.
in the meantime, i have scored two minor jobs, as a private computer tutor and an editor. the prior job i had last semester, but the editing job should be fun. my old roommate's boyfriend is writing a fantasy novel (it's fifteen chapters long!) and i have been compleatly intrigued by it for months. i've been asking if i could see it, so finally he asked if i really wanted to, and if so- would i edit- he would pay. score! of course the answer was yes (i'd do it for free).
then he (old rm's boyfriend) found some other guy who needs an illustrator for a children's book, and was reminded of me. anyhow, he grabbed the guy's card for me. now just have to call the children's book man to see what everything is all about.
all in all, things being very proactive.

suddenly i was @ 10:01 pm

tuesday, august 27, 2002

oh my god, why does the school computer lab even exist? it's so useless. all i wanted to do was go up, scan a few images, burn my zip disks to a cd and print an application. what did i do? nothing. two computers ate my zip disk, photoshop 7 has just been installed, but it only worked on one computer, this one did have "key access", this one was missing a mouse, that one missing the printer software, that computer doesn't have a system folder, this one won't do anything, this one is missing the scanner bus, the printer is out of paper, but not like it matters because no computers are communicating with it! ARGH!
i'm just going to sit around for an hour or two then creep up under the veil of darkness to see if the remaining two scanners function. then, muhahaha. the stupid computer office shall hear from me!
good news: as i stormed into the hallway, suddenly, hark! list, that music- is it not? i ran to the media center room (aka, the room with the big screen tv) and lo! it was lotr. i almost burst in and said, "who's watching? can we be friends?" but i didn't. ^^
today was a happy-happy job search day. actually, it was not a real job search day as i only applied to three theatres and the library. oh! and i compleatly screwed up my theatre ap. too. i have to call and harrass them.
but on my way downtown i was crossing over river when i noticed four monarch butterflies, each swirling about each other as the wind blew. i was incredibly intrigued by their presence. i mean, it's not every day you see four monarchs dancing together. i went over to the railing which overlooks the water because there's a huge long planter box filled with flowers which my four butterflies had listed towards. i leaned over slightly, and there were dosens of monarchs! all over the flowers. they must be passing through migrating. i stood there for a half an hour with an outstreched hand so the butterflies would crawl on my fingers. they were so beautiful, i could have stood there all day.
erm, yes. this would be how i go out, and not get a job.

suddenly i was @ 08:38 pm

monday, august 26, 2002

well, here i am. back at school. very depressed about the matter too. not because of school, i'm excited to start classes (or as excited about them as i will ever be) but because i feel so alone.
most of my friends have moved from the dorms, i feel a bit... left behind.
yesterday was the worst, i was so sad. this heavy feelin wast weighing down on my whole person. i missed home, i missed my family and i didn't really want to talk to anyone i knew here; which wasn't some incredibly difficult task as i arrived in the airport unbeknownst to anyone and uncerimoniously came to my dorm to move in.
as most of my friends have moved out, there was no one to run and greet not even my roommate who doesn't come for another week yet. i moved in by myself, unpacking things until 3 am (memo to self: mail crap home).
now i'm feeling better; as sad and pathetic as it sounds, i was really happy when i hooked up my computer and finally got to get into my email for the first time in 5 days. ^_^
still, it is so quiet here, and i'm just roaming everywhere alone.
two friends did come and found me eventually, even though i never told them i was back in- and it was strange... because i just was so sad and had to act excited. i think it will pass, but anyhow, more on this later perhaps?

suddenly i was @ 07:56 pm

sunday, august 25, 2002

ok... where's that last entry of mine? vanished? how very odd. well i think i finally have this blog's coding in hand. i hope. comments work. i just hope not every entry disapears after it's written. O_o

tomorrow i leave to go back to school. sigh, i am so depressed about the whole matter. i need another month or freedom. i feel so wound up and stressed, and i really don't want to see anyone i know there. one or two people perhaps, the the rest of my buddies!? no. why? probably because i need anti-depressants or something. i don't know. just not jumping up and down about leaving, all such thoughts will probably dissipate the moment i get back there and see someone i know. hmm. the time is wrong down there too. it's 3 am. i wonder what time zone i've put myself in?

suddenly i was @ 01:50 am

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